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How is it Spirit comes to me
when I least expect it?

It is something of a awakening to pray hard
and be received

to find that despite massive disspation
I am able to access strong dreams

amidst restorative sleep
which has left me completely liberated

with nothing but the present moment
to meditate in

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I have tried rigid attempts at yoga
only to tear a knee

rigid chants
which left me insane

and massive searching of phenomena
which left me exhausted

but the tender desperate plea
somehow generates the greatest result

and today I am filled
with peace and gratitude

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so now the cosmic pause
in response to my planned launch

job changes and knee changes
no apartment and no car

a maybe relationship
well beyond the rational

all leaving me liberated
to meditate and pray

one pedal in front of the other
right now and strangely

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