clearing

back from the nietzschean edge

listening to another reminder of my bipolar history
albeit subclinical

another band i like that i freaked out on
i hope everyone forgives my arrogance

feeling better after some serious coffee
good work structure and naps

attending to the anger i was stuffing
the fear underneath

and the sadness under that

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all i can say is that i need to take responsibility
for managing my sensitivity

do people smile more in off season
or am i here to learn to be the front man

mostly i realized self-centered pleasure-chasing
wears itself out after a month

on top of weird work schedules
and sleep disruptions

the trafficky urban world
and nothing much communal going on

i could find no remembrances

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in a world of oil-poisoned waters
accelerated aging and hormonal disruption

and wars that don't end
the place i will find myself at home

will likely be marked much more by unmet need than met
and less-selfish more-shared dreams

i guess new places stimulate learning
what matters is obvious:

the opportunities one takes
to be of service to others

to support the beauty-vision for the world
dancing in the midst

to attend to Life