hey bro

i am tired in an odd way
extremely present and spacey at the same time
sleeping on a train
if you can call it that
is a new-to-me form
of alteration

now hoofing across town to the hostel
chores done
friends well met
crushes contacted
studio time booked

i still don't know what to make of the entirety of things
cosmic rays and all that
brother can you spare a kiva

yet the mind moves

_____

closeness is interesting

i feel the aliveness of the ocean
my senses awoke with the moist air of the train station
through which i could smell the earth

even though it was
invisible in all directions from the platform

all the pain all the fatigue
all the longing all the moments
occur now

as i breathe at least once an hour
when i remember to

everything that happens
happens today