Bullshit Day Under Chemtrail Skies

Its actually a bullshit title. I'm feeling pretty good overall, but it's good to throw those who would read my pretty poetic stuff off the trail. And bring in the more jaded and sarcastic. Too, there is a level of truth to it, this squirrelly feeling I get after being in the hills when I re-enter the trafficky, wait-for-everything town of Santa Fe, with inner needs concomitantly arising in me, yet undefined...

Coming to the city, there is a pressure. It comes from a self-disconnection, in order to function in the flow-less traffic patterns. One muses that traffic could be immediately re-engineered so much better across the land, generating massive jobs and expression of human creativity. But the government, as we know, is no longer ours. It exists to serve the bankers, the illuminati elites, and itself--minion of the warlords.

It has been extremely encouraging the last month to see completely natural blue skies overhead, to an extent unseen in years. Paradigmatic changes are at hand. It is hard to say exactly where along the transition curve we are. On some prophetic level, victory has already been won. Yet we are seeing massive radiation releases into the air and water still. I can no longer eat fish from the Pacific Ocean! How tragic is this moment, that an aspect of this beautiful Gaian Earth so grand, so magnificent as the Pacific can be so poisoned by way of human folly and arrogance.

If the initial conditions for this were not themselves generated by old-guard terrorism, the massive cover-up and neglect of populace protection is evidence enough of the immorality of the leadership of this world. Is it enough of a mission for me to wander to the Middle East with the Takeuti Documents, and show the cabal they must stand down?

Ha, I thought you'd agree!

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For those of you unaware, I have taken the leap into authentic mental illness, also known as shamanic consciousness. Flaky Santa Fe has consumed me at last, a final knockout of all respectability. I have stepped off the train of modern civilization's rational approach to things, once and for all, in the last 48 hours. The ravens told me it was time.

And, alas, there is no going back, hallelujah. The world as we knew it is dead. The younger will survive better with their less-deteriorated telomeres to protect them, with a postmodern neotonous evolution likely to ensue. That is why so many are called to birthing these days even under such extreme environmental and cultural circumstances as we are witnessing.

As for me, I am happy cuddling for the most part. I suppose the 3% chance that I am to become a father soon is an interesting possibility. I am open to the Creator's Will on all that. And everything else, come to think of it.

I have been released by the overwhelming despair I feel for the world. There is nothing left to protect, no style by which to play it safe, no use in judging oneself, nowhere to hide. I dance without self-consciousness now. I feel tremendously loved, the more honestly I reach out to meet my own needs, in mutually abundant ways. What could be simpler, or more fun?

So there are these two currents at hand: the massive destruction going on, and the magnificently magical here-and-now. The incredible deterioration in the global ecosystem marks out the level of the magical and transformational technology we are being called to harness. So even these polar opposite currents ultimately harmonize.

I have no pretenses of living in this body forever. I am too busy living while I am alive in this way. Someday I will lay down and be too tired to get up. Or else I will punch some illuminati bastard in the face, and he will shoot me. It doesn't matter much either way. All this holding onto the suffering physical form was part of the final slaughter of my ego, the sudden shredding of familial contracts, the sloughing off of all roles of responsibility.

It's not that I don't feel shame, I am just no longer ashamed of the feeling. This too is part of the path, our very shortcomings a door to our wisdom.

There is no more strategizing, only this medicine we bring.