mostly about the kids

a part of me is watching
and wondering
is this really happening?

while i may go out dancing tonight
or just blog at length

and listen to the peatbog fairies
music a friend gave me
and was finally heard

what i really am doing

is moving

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a little work on the car done
tithing the good ride fairies

new captain contacted
with at least three days a week
work offered

which means with call-ins I can get
4-5 days a week

my choice
how perfect is that?

hang out on the beach
and play more music
when the personal economy is good

pick up days when i need to
or just want the exercise

it's really what i was hoping for
in joining tjs a while back

relocate to cool places
and see what suits me best

the beach suits me

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wow

it's great to have savings
to venture into one's dreams with

too many rotted on the shelf
from some kind of poverty

and i tell you
the calling to nurture the kids
is huge

they are great kids
actually it would be more accurate to say
great people

who haven't so far
caught much of a break

in terms of finding adequate support
for their young lives

sad

and
i am going to make a difference
in their lives

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i realized today
again

what it means to be an uncle

it is a role that suits me
incredibly well

I can really drop all my jackals
around kids

they have had enough judgment
and harshness

to build all the character they need

i'm not sure they've ever had someone
move to their town

to come spend time with them

with the sole purpose
of offering the caring attention

they seek
to be happy, or at least happier

as they work on learning
the essential life skill
of loving themselves

and thus access an essential resourcefulness

as they journey
into the challenges
of their lives

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yeah there is pride in my voice

it's a celebration
of being in tune enough

to wake up immediately
upon realizing the opportunity
to contribute to others'

lives

and the mutual needs met
by offering young ones

the essential uncle-ing tasks

of mentorship into the world

learning to play ball
interacting with others respectfully
ordering tea at a cafe

fishing

guess i need to learn how to fish
now

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along with this
there is the calling
to be of tangible support as well

giving and contributing
economically to their dreams

even if it's a ten or a hundred
or a meal out here and there

they can get a sense maybe it's not
such a world of deprivation

it's like the two months
i will be hanging out with them

it can be seen as a short window

but for a family such as ours
a little is a lot

we are if nothing else

tenacious

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in other news
my hair which i think was buzzed
eight months or so ago

is already entering
ponytail territory

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i am jumpy
with a couple waves of near panic today

is this really happening?

i sure hope so

i'm packing half my stuff
tonight

and driving to san diego


tomorrow