dreamscape

glimpses of meaning amidst an unexpected early morning dreamscape:

I'm in a classroom (a comfortable setting for me, where I tend to do well), and feeling engaged with the material and setting, despite being at a desk. We're working independently, and the instructor, a good-natured Spanish man, is making rounds from desk to desk. He mentions my name in regard to something about sweaters, and I look up from my work and say, "What's this about sweaters now?" He jokes that he thinks I'm responsible for all the recent sweater thefts around campus. By his lightness of tone, I gather this is a concern on campus, but within the realm of we-are-happy-this-is-our-biggest-problem-here.

I head toward a door, which I quite consciously reflect before deciding to open: "am I going to like this...okay let's see." I open into a large domed greenhouse, reminiscent of a mini-Biosphere 2, the Arizona project of a few years ago. I am part of a three person team, as if we had entered together, and I look around at the domed desert landscape. Much is growing, although the work has just begun. I check in with how i feel about it. Yes it is more desert-y than I might crave and I wonder if I need sunscreen. While I am a bit ambivalent about domed biosphere-type visions of the future, I admit that I feel good in here. The air is good, and there is a pleasant safety in being able to work barefoot in the sand with others.

A big part of this seems to be the safety of belonging to a collaborative effort of the community around me. Within the group of three I am beginning work with, I enjoy a relaxing platonic quality. The thin blond young woman (reminiscent of a TJs coworker) is someone I'm not attracted to, and it is pleasant to be free of the distraction. I did notice my temptation upon entering to check out another quite attractive worker (also from TJs) and her very colorful flowers, but chose not to do so.

Someone has found the missing chairs, which apparently had been hidden. Apparently another wonderfully minor campus drama. Leads me to consider the possibility of a future (both personally and collectively) which maybe less than ideal, but with a distinct quality of pleasure, lightheartedness, and met needs. With an emphasis on community collaboration.