accounting

trying to account for all the circles of communty i am currently involved in

i don't include my last 31 year old gamer girlfriend

but definitely my now-pregnant 26 year old friend in indiana

whose 60 year-old dad gave me permission to marry a couple years ago

when i was 44, even though i had not asked for her hand

or had even seen her since five years prior when she was 19, which was a confusing time

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my 21 year old djembe playing friend who just invited me camping is included

who brought two cute girls to our last jam who were really pleasant company, and turned out to be 16 i think, which surprised me

they were more mature in conversation than the 49 year-old i had dinner with last night

as was the bold little 11 year-old girl i met at the farm yesterday actually

who is older than my indiana friend was at 8, when i first met her as an autonomously living person

although in some way it is clear we met earlier, i being the family cook while she was being grown in her mother's womb

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it likely explains why she lives with her visual uniqueness

the narrow macrobiotic diet lacking in nutrients essential to normal eye muscle development

and also why i have always felt like more of a guardian angel/ godfather/ uncle to her

and never grasped why her dad never grasped why i never answered his proposal to me

but instead remained quietly stunned as i pondered

the bizarre karmic way relationships are, existing strangely out of--or across--time and space

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and maybe this defines the community most real

so let's include our ancestors and the corn people too