tantra def

i am grateful for quickies

especially for the thoughtfulness
and generosity behind the plan

that is why this limerance is
better than anything in recent years

am i beyond even this level
of conscious negotiation?

i want what i want
in terms of applying my life energy

and these dissipations again falter
good to learn

and turn then the question:
just what do i want?

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beauty at least is what I can now settle for
and love well needs to be love

when did it become this pale
and then why bother?

even if it goes wrong
i want the BIG LOVE

where the wheel is given over
to the Divine

even a little stupid romance fantasy
or really really evolved tantra

is in the right direction
even better: none of it!

there is greater satisfaction
in our dance

in ocean beach cuddling
so absent here

just saying hello even
if it is done in a certain way

is a meditation and reminder to ourselves:
what it's really all about

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as exciting as the van was
there was almost a voice in there saying

i'm just too old for this kind of thing
weird how jaded i feel around these parts

i want honest adventure
amidst this groaning world

magnetic economics and enlightened exchange
in support of finding

the highest and most satisfying uses for chi
the holy spirit chi

write a new book and share music making
trade and share medicines

manifest magic and help biospheric relations
serve the people

do farming that is fun

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it's not what you do
it's how you do it for sure

essentially practicing a vibrational level
that is strangely elusive here

a level of presence and commitment
that transmutes suffering

of course embrace tragic grief
just save the whining

for the very energy we need
involves a a kind of command

that does not come from me
and it does not allow for weak-ass shit

i know people are tired
but if there was ever a time

to get and keep it up

this is it