turning colors

i'm thinking i'd like to do a segue
from some sweet sufi type groove
into a neil young grunge guitar riff
starting his song when you dance

the music dream's a little farther away
after a couple weeks break
and again free of creative enhancements

sanity and strength are much better tho
and that matters

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santa fe is beautiful
the light is quite sweet this time of year
i enjoy it so much when i visit
now that i don't live there

i've questioned that decision for sure
but work seems to be settling down again
so i have a chance to see what the city offers

managing stress better
helps a lot of things

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i danced tonight at the railyards
i like when cate and i seem to defy gravity
when we dance i want to date again
good thing she has friends visiting

two people asked me if i still do mediation
pretty cool to still hold that persona for some
a few years later

gets me to thinking about that line of work again
how appealing

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getting off coffee and herb again
sure is helping my nerves
life's so much less angsty
after a couple days ugly detox

helps too to go into work
with the distinct attitude
of not taking shit from anyone

i forgot how effective
that strategy is

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i've heard more than a couple times
herb creates holes in one's aura
used to bug the crap out of me to hear it
like where's the science behind your dogma

starting to look more likely to me
i was feeling less protected somehow
with greater vulnerability

and that is something i personally
probably don't need

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played marimbas today
hands are getting better
good to be back in class again
learning new parts

some of those melodic patterns
are so ancient and beautiful
i can go into a trance watching my hands play

as if they demonstrate some physics principles
already grasped by ancient africans

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anyway thanks for the indulgences of your reading
writing that i was depressed helped me take action
try doing something differently
shake it off

begin to enjoy life again here in the city
where i realize after my first trip north in three weeks
people make way less eye contact down here

have fewer obnoxious bumper stickers
and use turn signals more regularly