gestalt chapter one: preening and posturing

underneath the busyness
is loneliness

underneath the loneliness is

a kind of emptiness
san diego is a very white town

upper middle class deadness
some delusion
i thought america was beyond

a world where the norm for men
is a kind of behavior i associate
with frat boys

ignorance and privilege
most specifically

to be oblivious

__________

women do not generally make eye contact
the norm is to tune in rather codependently
to their mates

part of a whole dance i have never understood

the preening and posturing
all semi-conscious

at best

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problem as i see it
especially with all the unbelievably spoiled kids

who are also the norm
is that the planet can't take much more of

the outright stupidity such behavior

engenders

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testosterone itself
is a rather dubious phenomenon of nature

although sexuality overall has been useful

staying ahead of viral mutations
by shuffling the genetic deck

it's not viruses who threaten the species now
it's our own stupidity

and the subsequently increasing
perhaps now likely probability
we will make our habitat unlivable

for complex mammals including ourselves
who depend upon sensitive hormomal cues and food webs

which in turn are extremely sensitive to environmental toxins
like the pharmaceuticals in the entire planet's drinking water

the pesticides everywhere
the heavy metals everywhere
and whatever's in the air this week

in your neighborhood

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meanwhile endless billions get poured into
male and now female
libido enhancers

and in the bigger picture
preserving individual lives with minimal quality of experience
and i know it sounds heartless

it just seems like such a tragic compensation
for so many lives spent
actively avoiding an ounce of maturity

any connection to why we are even here

or any contribution of empathy
to future generations

beyond the idea that nation and class
are thicker than

skin

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really i think i am just more european

i'm so done with empire
over there they gave it up

after a couple thousand years
of wasted time

preening and posturing