sea change

wow i just read two lovely inspiring posts from fellow bloggers back in NM, wish i could offer smiilar celebrations of life

am rather stuck in the muck of life in a city of 1.56 million people bordered on the south by another 1.5 million in Tijuana, and on the north by another 4 million in LA, which is actually 9 million if you are talking LA county

i understand over 90% of the water is imported here, and the largest percentage of one's energy bill is due to having to pump water from the Colorado River up a serious incline over mountains to SD

today i will head up to Encinitas to see if i can sell myself on the idea of staying in the area, it is a nicer town than OB, and the musicians i meet seem to be consistently up that way, it's about the same commute to work as i have now

but really i am thinking a lot about how much happier i was in NM, even honestly acknowledging my frustrations there too, and the possibility of getting back there is quite appealing, although not without embarassment

since the kids took off, i just have not found much reason to be here, and a lot of reasons not to be, guess that's enough for now

except to say it is a pleasure to read those NM blogs, i think back there i kept thinking i was missing something of the american dream, of some self-actualizing career path or wealth or maybe a different quality of relationship

but what i find is that there is actually much more happiness, much more self-expression, amidst the sometimes humbling limitations of life with less money, less goods and less water, in the spaciousness of the high desert

and these blogs you write speak to this, they have a quality of light that simply would not be found in anything i can see coming out of the San Diego experience

to be continued...