january bites

what shall i entitle this rant
i suppose the words shall determine
whether i am angry sad or amused
its all the same to me really

went to head to the bank this morning
to deposit ten dollars worth of coins
so that i can buy some more minutes
so that i can make and receive calls
in regards to finding a rental place

the van died around the block
maybe it didn't enjoy the last two single-digit mornings
could also be that my life is just a sitcom
for the random amusement of capricious gods

i got a container of gas that didn't help matters
triple-a california came through
as i was loading up my bike
and stuffing my sleeping bag into a backpack
since i am not sure where i'll be sleeping tomorrow night

got it over to the shop and biked home
stopping on the way at the bank
i see why natural people worshipped the sun
cuz when its grey and windy in wintertime
the cold feels all the more threatening

if i could rest i could get over the flu
and enjoy work while my fingers heal
but now my paycheck may not even cover the car repair
no less the overdue insurance
or the rent and deposit i hope to pay someone
or food or gas or phone minutes
or whatever the hell else
humans are supposed to have and do

for any of you who happen to be middle class
don't be fooled you are no different than
and not far from being out here with us

on the bike
in the cold
in the van
on the beach

on the street