just this

well since i'm here at the satellite cafe

i will take this opportunity to say

i am better than i was

over the two week flu

settled in a temp place

eating better--and more!

enjoying work for the most part

it's probably good for me to have quit

smoking and drinking this year

it's weird though

suddenly being over all the existential crap

that has plagued me for 47 years

even thought the nazi fema cia homeland

psy-op death march continues

i am going on dates

making money and

watching football

i know this disappoints all my fellow

conspirators young and old

i hope to get a place

where i can have a garden

and get the canine companion

i've wanted for a couple decades

i've been on the edge of anarchy

i've sought transformation

yet i've rarely indulged in the simple pleasure

of living with self-esteem

not sure there will be much left to blog about

perhaps a vision will come along

some purer tantra or zen thing

empathy or dance

justice for streetpeople

or a crop circle to get excited about