the discomfort of others, comments and complaints
tinged with the usual middle class racism
i like things out of the closet
and i would like to announce
i am not gay
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the thing is i don't actually consider myself
straight in any way
it implies something too linear for me
to relate to
anyway the penicillin is helping the tooth battle
although there are still waves of pain
and moments of acute illness
worked a full day then painted four hours solid
now i have a couple days off to detox
but i wonder who i am
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it was only a four day work week
but i have immense swings in energy
sleep 16 hours
or two
i am ready for the land
i have overwhelming moments during the day
my god what am i doing
i need to be outside on the Earth
yet i commit to a 3 month apartment
try one last push to get the health together
and a little savings
but like the rest of civilization
the last several thousand years
as symbolized by the cross
it was a sacrifice
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i still don't know why
it's not my paradigm
donation is
benefits
giving
potlatch: the organizing principle of an evolving civilized society
which was squashed by rather deluded europeans
empirical means both to understand things scientifically
and related to conquest and control
without seeking advantage
in some shapeshifting currency
we immediately connect to life when offered the opportunity
and when we remember the imperative to
contribute to life
there is no inflationary value
hence time is restored to its order
I can relate to the feeling of needing to be close to the earth. For another season, I escaped Santa Fe, to live in a run-down house, where big blackberry bushes push their way into my open bedroom window. Sprites and fairies dance over my head while I sleep.
ReplyDeleteWhatever you do while in the city, plant something! Even if you have to do some guerrilla gardening, plant something! Drop seeds into an empty lot, or in the cracks of a sidewalk. Help a friend lay down a row. Just plant something.
You will feel better. The earth will absorb some of your pain. The Mother is calling and the seeds are waiting.
Plant something.
Yes many of us are feeling that call to garden this year. I did dig and plant a garden bed in a neighbor's yard. In fact, I have planted twice now, and still no sprouts--yet. Thank you for your words, I like hearing of bushes and fairies!
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