amateur

i found flamenco style
on the guitar today

i think santana must have been influenced by it

it's the same energy as all this other
rediscovery and translation of traditional rhythms going on

and not just me
i'm just riding a global wave
toward the front

and trying to get a darn band together to ride with

__________

and it is thus:

in allowing the entire nervous energy to flow through the body

intense natural rhythms come forth
these are the same rhythms of life energy our ancestors utilized
in their sometimes wilder struggles for life
and certainly in sex

the musical connection between dancing and mating and all of that

really profound stuff
that's why keep coming around to it

one does need to pay some dues i think
enough suffering honestly with life
and not caving in
until we find tremendously deep resources on which to call
and realize it's okay to call on them every day
and thereby grow stronger

where was i going with that--
something like the concept of duende
the music that must either drive one to laugh, cry or passion

anyway, it's partly that tremendously fast playing
that the celts do sometimes and the gypsies and flamenco
and so on

italian mandolin

any people who suffered and persevered enough
to find access to that unlimited resource
that is the real definition of chi
and express it in their music

which is just about all peoples isn't it
the thing is it gives us post-moderns
in a sense without true culture

a reference as to what being human really means
it's not about sarcasm or laziness or coolness
irony

or any of our other bad habits

and what the secret is
well one anyway

it's focused twitching really
nerves firing in unison
pulsing

which is why listening to the funk band
was something equivalent to sex

and people who twitch together
well

y'know
maybe I just prefer

amateurs

rooted in the ancestral passion
of who we are