altitude

Yesterday I was able to get very quiet. Outside of work, I am more and more finding the space to just allow time to be a meditative flow. Thoughts move at a relaxing pace, one after another, without urgency to be anywhere other than where I am. Sometimes, I notice very little thought at all. In these moments, a strong and gentle celebration rises up in me. I am connected to an energy that is essential to life. There is gratitude and a quiet fulfillment.

I am certain the practice of vegetarianism over the last month or two is contributing to a smoother flow of chi. Temperance, or refraining from alcohol use, is helpful, although perhaps celibacy practice even more so. It has been a good couple of months, amidst health challenges and the arrival of mortality to my inner circle. These challenges have focused my attention on what is real and essential in life, and on letting go of the rest. What a gift.

The meditative and cleansing practices have allowed Spirit to come through with clearer guidance. Paths are unfolding without having to worry or figure too much out. I move with more grace, and offer to be of service, as I seek to support a more benevolent world. Christianity and zen have come into integration. Yoga--or the union of self with the Divine--has removed my shame at having conflicts in my life. They are grist for the mill of my evolution, as in physical yoga, where it is through the opposing push and pull of each pose that the deeply strengthening stretch is found.

Now, despite my inability to explain to coworkers why I would return to the crazy store, I return to Santa Fe. It is not only that Albuquerque no longer reflects reality to me, with its excess concrete, urban jadedness, and walls. Indeed, I am grateful to the town for the ease with which it receives me when I need a place to get a little bit underground. Now, I am coming out into the light again, at pondersosa altitude. It is a next step in the proactive manifestation of a joyful world.