ode to joe

been appreciating joes lately
not only cuz they're granting me the long leave

i've been enjoying the exercise again
been in the flow of the chaos lately

appreciating the effect that
demonstrated ability breeds confidence

and realizing that i am just happier
being around people

yesterday i was stressed out
trying to rest on my day off

but being alone finding my mind racing
amidst the toxicity of mercury removal

today going to work
i was able to work it off

as i have done so many times before

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i am curious how things may be
in the new age community

if i will have the space for this
the space i find men often need

to be a little less civilized
in discharging our nerves

will it be like the last couple nights' dances
where all is so sweet and groovy

so long as you are soft and spiritual
or tall and young and handsome?

i can do that feminine stuff
but not without the weed

and then i am weaker
as a man

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i will be gone nearly three months
on leave from the job

it is good to appreciate the chaos
before i go

i have committed this year
to being around people

this is my chance
to see if i fit better elsewhere

seeking service and nature
and yes even love

some beauty way beyond
this moneyed haliburton paradigm

that still allows my manhood
i've made so many leaps this life

without a net that it's good to know
this time joes remains