ORDINARY

how ordinary I'm becoming

without smoke and drink
men's groups and NVC
coffee and tantra

I am but a working stiff
in a bit of a fog
falling behind on sleep

no shamanic visions
nor plans to travel abroad
nor grand therapeutic training programs

I listen to sports radio
try to get to the pool to swim
let the laundry pile up

interview for promotions
consider relocating for the career
think about retirement

forget to eat salads
heat up leftovers
eat too fast

wonder about volunteering
or at least giving a buck
to the guy on the corner

become the grill master at parties
the burro at work
the dork around women

think about sex
avoid writing about it
in public blogs

go on dates
talk about family
wonder if she drinks too much

stay positive
having lost the taste
for conspiracy websites

take vacations
try to help out family
especially in times of crisis

try to open this old heart
yes this most of all

try to open this old heart