saner

I need to remember how essential catching up on sleep is to my well being. I can be as off-kilter with a night or two of short sleep as when I am toxic from chronic stimulant usage. Today's nap after a couple of good nights' sleep has restored some serenity, so that I am no longer as crazed, particularly in search of instant intimacy.

I did check out 50+ pages at match.com earlier today, I just don't think I can go there. Having to ponder whether to contact someone who is into karaoke--or only looking for 42 or younger, or Christian--before even meeting could drive me nuts. Besides, I already tried it years ago, and so much for that.

I am not so much looking for instant marriage, as good company with someone/intimacy and love/with the prospects for marriage. It's weird to have to spell it all out for myself (and blog attendees--thank you for your patience with this potentially boring matter!) Again, east coast--there's an understood trajectory for relationships, which is negotiable of course, but needing discussion only if not the norm there. Out here, anything goes--so if I'm not somewhat out front with what I want, I can end up in a polyamorous fiasco, or on a date with someone who brings a boyfriend, or a host of other situations. (And yes that has happened.)

Work was good today but its a surprisingly cliquish place. Nice to get back into the flow of things. It's cool to come back to a job I like. The interview with the ABQ boss kicked, and I am feeling more confident of an ABQ opportunity this summer. Feel excited about the change of venue, bigger city, being back around the cafes and nightlife, NVC and friends down there--and yes the possibility for meeting new women. Sanely.