i am alive again

i almost perished this week
from poor choices
and ensuing injury

prayer has won the day
after four days of acute pain
within the hell of my irresponsibility

and God has returned to me
gracing me with this celibate now
so blessed with loving friends

working it through
could not have been more symmetrical
book-ending so many jaded years

and i am now free
to clown up a road trip
watch sports and work for peace

dreams return from the void
offer some traveling energy medicine
or garden and a couple chickens

utter amazement
humility and gratitude
even somehow

innocence